Chillin’

Hey hey. I’m kickin it up at the college library. Doin’ some major thesis work. Being a really good student. Haha. Tryn to graduate on time!

Anway, for the past 4 years I’ve spent in this building, I’m quite ashamed to say that the library was my least favorite spot. I even like hangin out with some yosi-buddies outside the college or just chillaxin anywhere in this old building. But now it feels kinda different. I’m being surrounded by books and it’s totally cool. Even magical. And nope, these are no Harry Potter or any fiction book – these are supercool techie books (looks at the nearby shelf and reads: “Kinematic Analysis and Synthesis of Mechanisms”. Totally kickass…

So now, I’m just chillin here in the libe. So much fun! I just took some time off my thesis to write crap. Now back to work.

Chill!

Spence

January 18, 2008 at 7:02 pm 1 comment

Lesson Learned

Hmm.. So yeah, I’m still up at this late hour and I have a smashing exam later. Cooooool. It’s deja vu all over again!

Now let me tell you what happened to my class earlier today. I am not a fan of long equationz, derivationz an’ the like so it was really boring – but I say it still depends on the teacher. And since my teacher is pretty hawt, I kept on listenin. Then suddenly she asked a question. Now here’s the thing. I’m not really a smartass but I can pretty much work out the solutions given enough time. And by golly, it was indeed given to me. NO ONE was raising his/her hand to answer the simple question! Total silence. 3..2..1.. still nothing. I wanted to raise my hand but I just gulped because damn I thought, this must be a pretty tough question and I’m just being cool with it. I never ever wanted to be mortified in front of a huge class! So my confidence turned to doubt, then to fear. The dead air was unbearable it almost felt like I was in a suspense thriller movie. Seriously!

Then miss R broke the silence with a lecture. She said it was always like that with us students. We know the answers but we don’t wanna raise our hands and speak up. And I can attest to that. Damn we guys always play dumb when it comes to recitation – always hesitating to answer because we’re all afraid to make a mistake. Always afraid to be laughed at. Then when the answer’s already given, we just say to ourselves, “Oh sh*t, I knew that all along!!” and regret the fact that we didn’t speak up and get credit for it.

I know, I know. This issue’s not really big but it just made me think. Why am I too afraid to make a mistake? Why am I too concerned about my silly reputation? It’s not like I’m gonna die if a few classmates laugh at my dumb answer. And where will I end up in the future if I continue to hide in my shell? Locked up in a tight steel room/lab solving deadly equations and figuring out the crazy solutions? Definitely not.

So I learned the important lesson at school today. Knock everyone off with the killer confidence! Bam!

Haha. I’m out. Need to do some major crammin. Wish me luck!

Peace out!

Spence

January 16, 2008 at 5:18 am 2 comments

Welcome to the Future

It’s Sunday. It’s 4 in the morning. And I’m bored!

I felt like I should do something other than sleep, so I peeped into some people’s lives thru their online journals. I found some pretty interesting blogs and authors and it was really worth my time checkin their sites. And yeah I just have to say this. What is it with this time of the year and the topic ‘growing up-slash-contemplating the future’ because man, a lot of people (especially my fellow youngsters) are writing about it. I was just totally fascinated coz I’m plain anxious as they are about what the future holds and how will I ever grow up in terms of maturity.

Now let me have my own say on the scary concept called future. My usual advice: take it easy. Let the good times roll – just take one small step at a time and before you know it, you’re there. Of course it doesn’t pay much to think and contemplate at times but hey, DON’T make worrying a habit. That’s our parents’ job haha! In the mean time we just have to prepare for it by setting our goals and deciding for ourselves. (Gimme a hint if I sound like a mentor or a really experienced guy because I could be posing and I don’t even know it haha)

Moving on. So there, just build your dreams and don’t let anyone ruin it, don’t let the enemy engineer infiltrate your base or your World Tree be destroyed! Haha. Just earlier today I found someone who was tryn to kill my dream: my MOM.

Me (grinning): Ma, after I graduate I’m gonna earn bigbucks abroad, maybe in the US or CA, and I’m gonna stay there for good!

Mom: You think it’s that easy? It’s hell out there. They only have three weeks vacation etc etc etc . . . and what’s going to happen to you if you live alone? You can’t even take care of yourself. . .

So there ya have it. Anyone can ruin it for you, even the ones you love! Hahaha. I’m already on crack. I have to sleep now.

Peace!

Spence

January 13, 2008 at 4:48 am 5 comments

Alrightoh!

I’m startin this new blog today. It’s not exactly my first time to write crap online so I know how fun it could be! And it’s really exciting to be anonymous.

So I just concluded my whole online saga earlier. I guess some major brain cells got zapped and I realized that I’ve been spending too much time online lately. By ‘too much time’, I mean I hardly think of anythin else but what to write or do next for my awezum webzite, how do I frkn level-up my online gaming character, and how to score chicks on the worldwideweb. I’ve been so hooked to writing sh*t, mingling/chatting with strangers, and tryna look awfully good online that I’m missing my real life bigtime! And it really hit me. I looked in the mirror and I’m not sure it’s me lookin back (yep, just like Niki Sanders) and the reflection kept on asking me, “what the hell happened to you?”

Oh well, now I need to get a much needed shuteye. I’m off to buy a new pair of crocs tomorrow! Yey! And it’s gonna be gym-day on Monday, I promise! It’s time to get serrrious, baby!

Peace!

Spence

January 12, 2008 at 1:11 pm 1 comment

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